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'Sigh...' I really, really miss playing this game.

Procrastination

pro·cras·ti·nate (prō-krăs'tə-nāt'), v., -nat·ed, -nat·ing. -v.i. 1. to defer action; delay : to procrastinate until an opportunity is lost. -v.t. 2. to put off till another day or time; defer; delay. -pro·cras'ti·na'tion n., pro·cras'ti·na'tor n.

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I'm doing it again and I hate it when this happens to me. I'm like SpongeBob SquarePants in one of the episode where Mrs. Puff assigned the class to write an 800-word essay about what not to do at a stoplight. Excited as he is looking forward in writing the essay, unfortunately distraction keeps getting on his way. Experiencing a writer's block as soon as he sits down to write. Unlike SpongeBob I'm not procrastinating on writing an essay or anything, it's all about on my life. I'm procrastinating for almost a month now and I should take action on it. For a month... I should have finished this task that I'm suppose to do. First was to arrange the things needed in getting a passport (yes, you read it right I don't have a passport yet unlike my 3 yr old cousin). Second was e-mailing someone and I can't say why I should e-mail him, its more on a personal basis (as if it was that too personal... haha~).

J: 'Sigh' I really have to finish all of this by the end of this coming month. Wake up! Wake up! Stop procrastinating and complete this simple task.
C: Gee, here you go again... You always keep on saying, I'll do it later... I'll do it tomorrow...
J: Yeah, Yeah, I get your point.
C: You better get it or else mom will be bugging you about it.
J: No she won't.
C: Uhm, yah she will.
J: No she won't, if she does then I shouldn't be writing this.
C: Okay, fine. Just do it and finish it.
J: Yes, yes I will. Stop bugging me.

Here I go again talking to myself... Ah! you really should get a hold of yourself, 돌팅아 !

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Aquarius

Born under the sign of Aquarius, an astrological sign, which is associated with the constellation Aquarius. Under the tropical zodiac, Aquarius is occupied by the Sun from January 21 to February 19, and under the sidereal zodiac, it is currently from February 13 to March 14.
Aquarius is the eleventh sign of the Zodiac and associated with future ideas and the unusual. Individuals born under this sign are thought to have a creative, challenging, entertaining, progressive, stimulating, and independent character, but one which is also prone to rebelliousness, coldness, erraticism, cowardice, and impracticality. In terms of anatomy, Aquarius is said to rule the legs from knees to ankles and the circulation of blood. In terms of geography Aquarius is linked with Sweden, Canada, Ethiopia and Poland.
Physically, individuals born under the sign of Aquarius supposedly tend to have a vague expression, straight and silky hair, finely chiseled features, and a tall and slender figure. The males are often said to tend to be rather effeminate in appearance and the females somewhat broad-shouldered and masculine.
Aquarius is traditionally thought be ruled by the planet Saturn, but in more recent years many astrologers have labelled Uranus as the ruler or co-ruler of Aquarius, attributing the erraticism associated with the Sign to the planet's influence. In mythology Aquarius is often with the mythological figure of Odysseus, King of Ithaca, from the Greek myth of the Trojan War. Aquarius is also associated with the Greco-Roman god Uranus/Caelus and sometimes the god Cronus/Saturn.

(source : Wikipedia)

The Hardest Things In Love :

1. Flashing your smile to someone you don't want to see.
2. Bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget.
3. Showing that you care.
4. Finding a way to mend a broken heart.
5. Learning that you've been used by someone you truly love.
6. Saying "i love you" when you mean it and when you don't
7. Letting go of a person you've just learned to love.
8. Realizing that you love somebody you've just taken for granted.
9. Realizing that you love the person you've just broken up with.
10. Waiting for promises you know he/she will never keep.
11. Saying your love for someone who loves somebody else.
12. Reminiscing the good times you shared together.
13. Shielding your heart to love somebody.
14. Trying to hide what you really feel.
15. Having a commitment w/ someone that you know would not last.
16. Trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes.
17. Sharing the one you love w/ someone else.
18. Loving a person too much.
19. Giving up someone you never thought of giving up.
20. Falling in love for the first time.
21. Loving someone you haven't seen.
22. Having the right love at the wrong time.
23. Exerting effort to make the relationship last or work.
24. Not being appreciated when you know you've given your best.
25. Taking the risk to fall in love again .
26. Hiding your relationship from someone else.
27. Controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend.
28. Choosing between 2 persons whom you really love.
29. Finding out that you can never have the person you just let go of back.
30. Seeing the person you love with someone else.
31. Falling in love with someone you didn't mean to fall in love with.
32. Letting go of someone who was never yours...
33. Finding the perfect guy/girl...with only one problem... he/she doesn't love you.
34. Giving your heart to someone who doesn't give a damn about you.
35. When the one you love doesn't even know you exist.
36. Pretending you're OK when inside you're dying.
37. Saying "I Love You" not knowing how the person will respond/reply
38. Keeping the feelings to yourself... and when you finally let it out, it's too late.
39. Having to listen to the one you love talk about the one he/she loves.
40. Staying friends even though you both know that you both have very strong feelings for one another.

SAKURA ドロップス

Utada Hikaru

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Joey Potter

"How can you assume to be friends with someone when all you think about when you look at him is how much more you really want?"

Dawson's Creek

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Dawson's Creek

Love ♥

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love (lŭv), loved, lov·ing.
-n.
1. the profoundly tender or passionate affection for a person of the opposite sex.
2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
3. sexual passion or desire, or its gratification.
4. a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
5. (used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like) : Would you like to see a movie, love?
6. a love affair; amour.
7. (cap.) a personification of sexual affection, as Eros or Cupid.
8. affectionate concern for the well-being of others: a love of little children; the love of one's neighbor.
9. strong predilection or liking for anything: her love of books.
10. the object or thing so liked: The theater was her great love.
11. the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God.
12. Chiefly tennis. a score of zero; nothing.
13. a word formerly used in communications to represent the letter L.
14. for love, a. out of affection or liking; for pleasure. b. without compensation; gratuitously : He took care of the poor for love.
15. for the love of, in consideration of; for the sake of: For the love of mercy, stop that noise.
16. in love (with), feeling deep affection or passion for (a person, idea, occupation, etc.) ; enamored of : in love with life; in love with one's work.
17. make love, a. to embrace and kiss as lovers. b. to engage in sexual intercourse.
18. no love lost, dislike ; animosity : There was no love lost between the two brothers. [ME ; OE lufu; c. OFris luve, OHG luba, Goth lubō]
-v.t. 19. to have love or affection for: All her pupils love her.
20. to have a profoundly tender or passionate affection for (a person of the opposite sex).
21. to have a strong liking for; take great pleasure in: to love music; She loves to go dancing.
22. to need or require; benefit greatly from: Plants love sunlight.
23. to make love to; have sexual intercourse with.
-v.i. 24. to have love or affection, esp. for one of the opposite sex. [ME lov(i)en, OE lufian; c. OFris luvia, OHG to love, L lubére (later libére) to please; akin to LIEF]
-Syn.
1. tenderness, fondness, predilection, warmth, passion, adoration. 1, 2. LOVE, AFFECTION, DEVOTION all mean a deep and enduring emotional regard, usually for another person. Love may apply to various kinds of regard: the charity of the Creator, reverent adoration toward God or toward a person, the relation of parent and child, the regard of friends for each other, romantic feelings for one of the opposite sex, etc. AFFECTION is a fondness for persons of either sex, that is enduring and tender, but calm. DEVOTION is an intense love and steadfast, enduring loyalty to a person; it may also imply consecration to a cause. 2. liking, inclination, regard, friendliness. 19. like. 20. adore, adulate, worship.
-Ant. 1, 2. hatred, dislike. 19, 20. detest, hate.


Quotes :

"Love: A temporary insanity curable by marriage or by the removal of the patient from the influences under which he incurred the disorder. This disease, like caries and many other ailments, is prevalent only among civilized races living under artificial conditions; barbarous nations breathing pure air and eating simple food enjoy immunity from its ravages. It is sometimes fatal, but more frequently to the physician than to the patient". - Ambrose Bierce in The Devil's Dictionary

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived". - William Parrish, from the movie Meet Joe Black

"I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love". - Mother Teresa

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(note: meaning taken from Webster's Encyclopedic Unabridged Dictionary)
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Stolen

Dashboard Confessional

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the song in this music video is the single version (fast tempo) and goes very well with the vid., but i still prefer the album version (slow tempo).

Official site

anyway here's the album version... performance of Stolen by Dashboard Confessional on the NBC Today Show.

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Ang Paboritong Libro ni Hudas

Are You All Right?

I'm alright... I'm alright... I'm alright... I'm alright... I'm alright...

I know it's been a crazy week for me, the rantings and ravings, the crazy 'hurt... ing' conversation with myself and liking your hair. All in all I know I've been crazy on myself again. I know I have ended the story of your book and that I should never re-read them again. But this past week I have re-read the story again, I have opened the book that was supposed to stay closed forever. Now I have to close it again and left it laying around somewhere until it's lost forever and nowhere to be found. Things that is lost forever cannot be found.... right? You have stolen my heart from me and I know i can't get it back. So I will leave it where it was or hide it deeper and have a new fresh one instead. I like looking at you, liking how your new hair looks good on you however I have to wake up and face reality. I can't go on living in my own fairy tale.

I am all right!

ABNKKBSNPLAKo?

Carrie

I Like... Your Hair...

I never imagine you with a long hair, not the long... long like some rock star or some painter, artist's. It's like the hairstyle of 소지섭, he's a korean actor in which I'm very fond of (hmm more like an addiction haha~ :D). Something like that but his is a little bit longer than yours. I really like your hair now... it compliments your looks. I have no idea that you will grow your hair like that because I always pictured you with a clean cut hair. But hey, who am I to tell you these things, probably some people around you will ask you to cut your hair. As for my point of view if given the chance to tell you, for me honestly, it looks great on you... you should keep it that way.

Bad Day?

Is it a bad day? I guess not... maybe I'm just ranting and raving for things I'm not suppose to rant and rave about. Bad Day is when things don't go your way just for a day, a freakin' one day. Not when it starts the other day or the other day before that, its more than one day. Forgive the rantings and ravings that you're going to read here but it's better to let it out than keep it bottled up inside. It all started last Sunday, infront of my computer editing my friendster and myspace profile's. It came out pretty well and satisfying, well for me. Then after a couple of hours I suddenly felt this heavy feeling inside of my chest. I find myself harder to breathe, it's like something inside me was squashing my heart slowly and painfully. As time pass... seconds, minutes and I still feel it. I guess hurting is one bloody hell of a thing that one can feel. Yes I'm hurting... hurt to see the reality, the life of someone I knew... being happy.

C: Hurting!? You are hurt... ing!? Think twice honey, you're not hurting because you have no rights for it.
J: Yes, I know that.. you don't have to tell that to my face. I'm aware of the fact that I don't have the right to feel hurt... ing!
C: Then why are you ranting about "hurt.. ing!?"
J: Can you for once go my way... just this once, SHUT UP! Can you?
C: Fine, go right ahead be my guest. I'm not the one who's going to feel the bloody thing called "hurt... ing!"
J: Right... So can I proceed now. Thank You!

And for the crazy things I just said.. Yes I don't have the right to feel hurt about this, because it wasn't mine to feel in the first place. It is easier to let go of something that have been yours than letting go of something that never been yours. Like hurting because someone left and hurt you than hurting because he's not aware that you are hurting. Aishh... I'm not making any sense here, not a bit.

C: Now I get it... that's why you blogged that 'SEE NO EVIL, HEAR NO EVIL, SPEAK NO EVIL'
J: So...
C: Nothing... Nothing... Continue with the "hurt... ing!" thing.
J: Ahhh I'm stopping now, Okay... Happy? Fine I'll stop right now.
C: Oh Bollocks!
J: Stop cussing. Sshhhhhhh.
C: Oh never mind...

See No Evil, Hear No Evil, Speak No Evil

Sometimes it is better to close your EYES, so you can't see what you don't want to SEE. To close your EARS, so you can't hear what you don't want to HEAR. To close your MOUTH, so you can't say what you don't want to SAY.
To be able to see the truth hurts that you can't bear to look at it. To be able to hear, hurts more because hearing the truth accompanies seeing the reality. Contrary to what you're telling to yourself it doesn't hurt. We can't escape the truth... it's either you accept it and live with it or reject it and live with lies all your life. Acceptance is much easier to do, hurt will eventually fade as time passes by. Rejecting will only burden the hurt, which will slowly eat and consumed your body and soul.

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Four Past Midnight

Life, Death and Mankind

To live in this world is something that a human being can be greatful of. That no matter what life brings you, still you know that you are alive, breathing and surviving. As what the lines says in the movie Cast Away, "I have to keep breathing because tomorrow the Sun will rise, who knows what the tide could bring."

Being alive in this world requires us to go through the process of the cycle of life. We live and eventually we will die, thats the nature of it. But our death is not the end to the journey of our lives, its only the beginning of another path that we must take to complete the cycle. Between Life and Death there is a thin line that connects us from the time we are born and from the time we die. Where in that line there is a story woven in our own ways we never suspected. A connection of our lives with other people's lives, overlapping and affects in a way we didn't know.

George Washington Carver, quoted "How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving and tolerant of the weak and strong. Because someday in your life you will have been all of these."

Everyone of us was created unique, because i know that never in the history of mankind that we have another person who is exactly the same as we are. Even twins are not exactly the same as who they are, each has their own unique qualities. So, don't say that you are exactly just like me because i really am not. What we do is what we are but sometimes what we don't do is what makes who we really are. And sometimes, "the choices we make dictates the lives we live" as what Mr. Bill Rago said in the movie Renaissance Man. Thus mankind did what makes out of him.

Mixed Blessings

Drive Me Crazy Soundtrack

Rome + Juliet Soundtrack

Romeo & Juliet 1968

Romeo & Juliet 1996

10 Things I Hate About You Soundtrack

You can erase someone from your mind.
Getting them out of your heart is another story.

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh;
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close;
Not even a little bit;
Not even at all.

Nobuta wo Produce

野ブタ。をプロデュース

an old article

The One That Got Away

By: Mark J. Macapagal
Source: The Manila Times, June 24, 2003

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with ... and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending with someone, finding a longtime partner that is does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become deal breakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter.

All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple ... find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "the one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

If Only She Knew

I know she loves you and I can't interfere
So I'll just have to sit back and watch
My world disappear

Michelle Branch

5 Laws of LiFE You Can Depend On

1. This too shall pass. Nothing stays the same. The only constant in life is change. With every decision we make, we initiate change. Even when we decide not to decide, life still goes on, and changes still occur. When we are in a state of discomfort, sadness, grief, or pain, we know that because life goes on, change will bring us some kind of relief. And because even comfort, happiness, and all good things also pass, we know that we need to appreciate and cherish each precious, fleeting moment.


2. Time heals. The timepiece of life never stops. Neither does it pause for those who celebrate, speed up for those who are impatient, nor slow down for those who fear tomorrow. Time ticks a regular rhythm that steadily brings new moments, new days, and new seasons. As time pushes forward, we take new steps, face new challenges, and create new opportunities. And as life goes on, we are forced to move past our episodes of disappointment, sorrow, or despair. More than anything else, time heals not just broken bones but broken hearts as well.


3. Ask and you shall receive. People won't know what you want unless you ask for it. Dreams and goals are just wishes until you act on them, and acting on them often requires that you ask for answers, for assistance, or for something tangible. It takes a lot of courage to ask for help, but when you come forward, only then will the world know what to give you. Just ask and know that miracles can happen.


4. You can have anything, but not everything. Life offers us infinite possibilities. With hard work, determination, and perseverance, we can achieve anything. If we are willing to pay the price and go the extra mile, we can have whatever our hearts desire. But no matter how hard we try, we can't have everything. Life is a balancing act of wins, losses, and trade-offs...we gain some and we lose some.


5. What goes around comes around. It's the universal law of nature: do to others what you want others to do to you, because whatever you sow, you reap; whatever you give, you get back ten-fold. It doesn't hurt to smile, or be kind, or extend a helping hand. You never know when or how, but every act of goodness always returns to the GIVER. Give one today and receive ten tomorrow.

Goodbye To You

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours
And I want whats mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

Michelle Branch

Manila Cathedral

[photo by : Thorsten]

Minor Basilica if the Immaculate Conception

House M.D.

CSI : NY

CSI :

My Sassy Girl

love is all you need