A Day After . . .

Christmas day is over, having a good time with the family is still the best part of it. Our place was the venue for the celebration this year however it should have been my aunt's place. But every member of the family want it to be in our house. My mom was telling me that when she called my grandmother everyone was saying they want Christmas took place in our house. I was laughing because we don't have anything to prepare, it was decided early on that my aunt is the host this year. So just to make it happen they brought the prepared foods in our house. Everything was great and the house was filled with noise and laughter. The only gift I got is a scent spray given by my aunt, Pear Glacè silkening body splash by Victoria's Secret GARDEN. My cousin was asking me to choose between Pear Glacè and Endless Love. I was wavering if I should choose Endless Love over Pear Glacè because I kinda like the smell of it too. But I ended up choosing Pear Glacè because its scent is mild and besides I like its color (lighter shade of apple green), haha~ ^_^ sometimes color affects my taste too. Yesterday all the family was present including my uncle, aunt and two other cousins that live in the states now through Yahoo messenger, and even though our 'Tatay' (my grandfather) is not here with us anymore I know he's gladly watching us and happily celebrated Christmas with the whole family. We miss him dearly especially my grandmother who just the thought of him makes her cry. I like about Christmas is the get together of the whole family, you can see them and share laughters with them. What I don't like about it is the same question I was always asked over and over and over again... "So, do you have a boyfriend?" and the recently asked question to me now is "Oh, where is he? What happened?" and "How old are you?" and "Are you planning to have a family". I really hate it when they started asking me this questions. Along with the sudden surprises of news of one of the member of the family. As far as I remember there hasn't been a get-together that there's no shocking revelation that happened in my family. This year its about my cousin conceiving, as expected I wouldn't be off the hook on the topic. As soon as they saw me the bomb was dropped on me "Oh, she's expecting when will it be your turn?" sarcastically I told them "How can I conceive when I don't have a boyfriend in the first place." Are they insane? They know I don't have a boyfriend so why are they asking me that BIG STUPID QUESTION, its not like I would suddenly conceive because my cousin was expecting. I am not the Virgin Mary for God's sake but WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? ask me this question. They were telling me to hurry up and got myself a boyfriend or someone who I can marry and have children on my own because I'm not getting any younger. Yeah, Yeah my cousin is a year younger than me and she's expecting now but what can I do she has a boyfriend and I don't. Am I supposed to blame myself for not having a boyfriend at my age and it's not my fault that she got pregnant first and not me. Ah! how frustrating! That's why sometimes I would rather be alone by myself because that's the only time I feel sane in this world. The only person that I can say who makes sense is my other aunt. When we were talking in the balcony along with my mom, my other aunt and my uncle the topic of 'boyfriend' was mentioned again. I like what she said, "Maybe they were not meant to be and maybe she was looking for someone else." Its the only sensible words I have heard in all of the nonsense talking that took place earlier that day. Yes I agree with her on that, we are not meant to be and I'm looking for someone who I can share the rest of my life with. I believe that he is out there because God has someone else planned for me. And for now I would happily enjoy my life.

SMILE! Because LIFE is so wonderful to frown about, right!

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