Happy Halloween!

the first and the last time...

ten years have passed and many things haved happened. i have been a fool half of those years for not knowing i haved loved someone close to me. making me crazy for finding out this person has feelings for me too. but it's too late for me to show and say what my heart truely feels, now that you're with someone else. avoiding you is the only way because i know it is the best thing to do. however some situations come and our paths would crossed again. trying my best to flash a sweet smile though deep down inside i'm hurting. everytime you smile i can't help but to tell myself, it should have been mine and i'm the reason behind those smiles. just the thought of it leaves me in a wonderful fantasy even for a moment. then when reality kicks in, it seems that there's always this needle comes bursting my made-up world. all that is left is a hazy gray sky, as i gazed upon a horizon of nothingness. you never know how haved i wished that you could have faced me and have taken the risk of telling me what's inside your heart. the time when the both of us were still free, then maybe back then you haved saved me from wasting my time loving someone who doesn't deserved the affection i haved given. but as those time passed i'd come to realize, i can't force things that aren't meant to be. that things just don't go the way i want them to... because we know life would always be unfair and reality is just cruel. i know now that i have to let go and hanging on to something that's not real won't do me any good. it seems that my book was opened for so long and i'm stucked in this page hoping the succeding lines of the story would change. the time has come for me to finally end the story and close the book to be able to start a new story to read on. inspite of everything, i am thankful that you haved spared a portion of your heart to me... for the feelings you felt for me. it is enough for me to know that somehow i have been a part of your life and touched your heart. i am sorry if i have hurt you in any way i wasn't aware of. so now i want to wish you a happy life, all the blessings in the world and be healthy always. it's the only thing i can do in return for the good deeds you haved shown me. i will never forget someone like you in my life and you'll be a memory which will always be in my heart. so for the first and the last time i'm going to say... I'M SORRY, I LOVE YOU.

♥josephine♥

Empire Records Soundtrack

really cool songs

Battle Royale II

Battle Royale

Sad Movie

A Tale of Two Sisters

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HAPPINESS

Clinical psychologists believe that happiness is a product of realization. One must allow oneself to go through a process to feel happiness. They explain the following phase:

• Accept the Pains.

You must get in touch with your situation. Sometimes people deny their hardship, thinking that if they don't face them, they will be happier. But it's the other way around. Allow yourself to go through the pains.

• Choose Not to Stay in Pain.

They say this is "self-empowerment." You can either be bitter about the pains and feel very powerless. Or you can do something and feel powerful enough to handle them. It's a choice to live with or without pain.

• Forgive Yourself, Other People.

But before forgiveness comes in, think about how other people hurt. Then realize that you can see yourself for what you actually are and not how they want you to be.
So finding happiness is no longer rooted outside, but it's inside you? what you see, how you view things, what you want. Then it leads to your choice: to live your life with yourself.

• Take Responsibility for Your Life.

We sometimes allow ourselves to let other people, circumstances, or pains in the past to rule our lives. So we become very unhappy and very bitter because we live blaming others for who we are, where we're at, or how we should be. It's an exhausting process because you'll forever be blaming other people. Don't be bothered by what others think who you are or the standards they set. Take responsibility for your life.

• Learn to Let Go and Trust Yourself.

To be happy means learning to let go of expectations from yourself or from other people. You can't always have your way.
At work, you can't always be sure your strategies will work or your plans will happen. But before you let go, have a deeper trust in yourself.

• Learn to Receive Blessings.

Think of the little things that make you happy or the people that give you assurance where you're good at. This is called receiving. Most of us have reasons to be happy, only that we don't see them or we take them for granted. We need to have little eyes and little hearts too, and realize that all things that make us happy have been there all along.

• Have Somebody to Turn To.

Even if you're in turmoil, there are people who will support you. But often we stick with people who make us very unhappy. If you're unhappy, seek people who will nurture you or look for a partner who will serve as well-spring of inspiration.

• Be Hopeful.

Hoping is better than being optimistic since it's whole and real. Because sometimes, one's optimism can be denial of hardship. It's easy to be optimistic about things, but inside you, you're anxious about them. Hoping is deeper; it's something you look forward to even when you recognize the difficulties and pains. The more hopeful a person is, the more he recognizes how bad the situation is, and lets himself to bear it. In the end, he knows it will bear good results. You don't deny difficulties. You're touching ground instead.

• Keep the Faith Alive.

There'll be points in your life when you can't handle problems alone. Think about someone who's more powerful, and who loves you dearly to take care of you. Having faith in God will give you hope.

• You Can Actually Give Intangible Gifts Even Without Your Conscious Effort.

People will tell you later that you've helped them, and gradually, you will feel you're making difference in their lives. That's a deeper gift. When you help others, they affirm you by saying, "You're good." Then you realize that you're a good person and your goodness is not merely based on meeting deadlines or getting a raise.

Crying Out Love In the Center of the World

Be With You

Alone In Love

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Hana Yori Dango "Boys over Flower"

花より男子

The ONE Person

by JOSEPHiNE

what if you meet the one person you couldn't live without?
the one person you'll offer your life and sacrifice everything...
the one person reason enough to make you smile.
the one person that gives you enough courage to face the world no matter how difficult life may seems.
the one person who will love you just for being what you are.
the one person that wouldn't hurt you because the mere thought of hurting you is enough to break his own heart...
the one person that when you look into his eyes and see all the wishes in your heart and all the dreams you've ever had comes true.