The Day I stopped being Your FRIEND

It's been a long time since the last time I saw. It was our friend's celebration party, one [1] year and seven [7] months to be exact... i think? That's the day I found out you're officially with her, someone special who you will share your life with. I didn't meant to eavesdrop, but we're on the same table and accidentally over heard what you and my best friend are chatting about. Upon knowing that I suddenly felt sad and all I can do is stare at the bottle of beer in my hand. "He has a girlfriend? He has a girlfriend!" are the words that kept repeating and repeating in my mind. Then I gazed at you and saw this smile in your face, expressing how happy you are. Being your friend I know I should be happy for you but deep inside of me don't want to. I know that you have started a new life and all but I just can't help to bother myself with all of this. Remember the time you said those three [3] wonderful words to me? The time when we were exchanging text messages talking about stuffs in our life. Out of the blue you said those words to me and I was really surprised and never expected it but I was so happy when I read them. In return I asked you 'why are you saying those words?' and you must think at that time why asked such a stupid question. Right it's a stupid thing to do because I should have just let you know what I wanted to say. An opportunity which I seriously let go and regretted it most of the time. Because I thought that there'll be next time and wait for that day. However it never came... instead the day I've been waiting for is not meant for me. Even though it's going to be hard in my part, that's also the day I decided not to be friends with you anymore. The day we parted is the last time I showed you my smile and cut the ties of friendship we have.

Please don't hate me for this, that's all I asked of you.

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